Reminder about me, that some of you seem to never hear - "I AM AN ASSHOLE"

I AM NOT TO BE LIKED.

I AM NOT A VERY LIKABLE PERSON.

MY WORK IS WHAT YOU SHOULD CARE ABOUT, NOT ME, THE AUTHOR.

IF YOU SAY SOMETHING STUPID, I WILL LET YOU KNOW JUST HOW STUPID I THINK IT IS IN NOT THE NICEST WORDS.

WHY?  THAT SHOULD BE UNDERSTOOD IF YOU FOLLOW ME.  IMAGINE GIVING UP NEARLY YOUR ENTIRE ADULT LIFE FOR TRUTH IN THIS SOCIETY AS I HAVE DONE.  IF YOU DON'T LIVE UNDER A ROCK, YOU KNOW HOW ONE IS TREATED FOR SPEAKING TRUTH.

I COULD HAVE JUST FOCUSED ON ME AND MONEY.  I MADE 150K A YEAR WHEN I WAS 22, BUT I QUIT TO MAKE $10 AN HOUR AT A GROUP HOME AND GO BACK TO SCHOOL SO I COULD TEACH.  WHY?  BECAUSE MONEY ISN'T SHIT AND I KNOW IT, AND I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO FIND A WAY TO TEACH PEOPLE HOW TO CHANGE THE WORLD.  IT ISN'T CHANGING BUT I AM DOING MUCH SACRIFICING.

SINCE 2014 I'VE LOST EVERYTHING I HAD, MY VALUABLES, MY MONEY, THE MEANS I HAD TO MAKE MONEY, AND A LOT OF TIME... COUNT THE HOURS OF INVESTMENT ON THIS BLOG AND THE HOURS NOW ERASED BY GOOGLE ON YOUTUBE.

I AM JADED BECAUSE OF IT.

I HAVE NO FUSE LEFT.

MAYBE THE BIG WORDS WILL HELP SOME OF YOU.  IT'S LIKE A CHILDREN'S STORY.

*That said, I still know how to present myself and stay cool when I need to.  I'm always in control, but I won't hold back my words to be liked by people I don't want to be liked by.  Being liked is not at all important to me.  Waking up the sheep is.  That's it.

This goes out to the guy who saw the sirens at Texas Tech, so he thought it was all real... and then when I told him he had to be shitting me, he cried about what an asshole I am.  How many times do I have to tell a person, I already know what I am?

AND, most important, even though I'm an asshole, I do care about people, and I do not like to hurt people, so don't let my words hurt you.  My words should not hurt you.  "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me."  If I'm saying mean shit, it's because of everything I wrote above, and you should remember that I'm an asshole, and that's the reason for my mean words, so you don't have anything to feel bad about.  Again, if I ever hurt you, I apologize for that.  When I'm mad, like everyone else, I say meaner things than I need to.

*Plus, I haven't smoked any weed since September 30, so I think I'm even more irritable, I'll adjust.